When I arrived in Japan, I expected to learn more about my Japanese identity. As someone who is half Japanese and half White, I have spent much of my life feeling like I didn't completely fit into either category. In Oregon, people often see me as Japanese. In Japan, however, people usually assume I'm American.
One thing that surprised me was how often people assumed I couldn't speak Japanese. Almost every conversation started with questions like, "How do you know so much Japanese?" or "Where did you learn Japanese?" At first, I found it funny, but after hearing the same questions repeatedly, it became frustrating. It made me realize that no matter where I am, people often make assumptions before getting to know me.
At the same time, these experiences helped me become more comfortable with my identity. Growing up, I often felt like an outsider depending on who I was around. When I spent time with Asian groups, I was sometimes viewed as the white guy. Around white groups, I was sometimes viewed as the Asian guy. Being in Japan showed me that these feelings are not unique to the United States. Instead of making me feel disconnected, it has helped me become more confident in who I am. I no longer feel the need to choose between being Japanese or American. Both are important parts of who I am.
One of the most meaningful lessons from this experience came from an unexpected place. Near the end of my program, I left a few days early to pursue an opportunity related to my goal of playing professional basketball. During that time, I had the chance to spend time with a mentor from my agent's agency. Going into the conversation, I expected to learn about basketball and professional sports. Instead, I learned something much bigger.
My mentor talked about the importance of being a professional not just in your career, but as a person. He explained that success is not only about talent, achievements, or reaching your goals. It is also about how you treat people, how you carry yourself, and the kind of character you show every day. He emphasized the importance of having good humanity, especially in Japan, where respect, humility, and relationships are highly valued.
That conversation changed the way I think about my future. Whether I pursue professional basketball, physical therapy, or any other path, I want to be remembered for more than my accomplishments. I want to be someone who treats people well and represents both myself and those around me with respect.
Before coming to Kyoto, I thought studying abroad would teach me more about Japan. Instead, it taught me more about myself. It helped me better understand my identity, but more importantly, it helped me think about the kind of person I want to become.
Charlie Brown, Diverse Ducks Ambassador